Socratic Dragon

 I made it 2 months. Two months could also be on day 62 because 31 days equals a month. Anyway...I am happy to have the longest stretch of 75 Hard and getting closer to the end-3 hands away. Right now I am feeling so sick from the frog dissection that I cannot write my food below. Let's just say, I did not eat all of my protein and calories because I was sick to my stomach and could not get rid of the formaldehyde smell.  Quick summary-eggs, homemade bread, cc, z bar 500 calories/20g protein  Lunch apple, rice, rice-chicken-avocado but it made me sick    400 calories/25g protein (maybe) Dinner-coffee, ezek with cc-strawberries and PB (2), protein yogurt  400 calories/30g protein  Maybe that is correct...anyway that is all I can recall.  Reading is going well. I am almost done with Blue Zones. My workouts are ok. I need to follow an ultra plan to get ready for the race in MI if I really think that I want to run it.  https://www.mymottiv.com/ul...

 I am almost into the final stretch. Getting close to 15 days to go. Thursday starts the 15-day countdown. Exciting things are happening these next few day. We have frog dissections planned for Thursday and Friday, which should go well because I am going to prep them and guide them slowly through the process  Up at 5:30  walked Shadow 2 miles and did the 20 min meditation. Whenever it gets to the friend section, I feel a little uneasy. I haven't really made a friend in my adult life. It is so difficult. When I thought I had made a friend, it fell apart along with everything else during that time. Oh well.  Breakfast 2 eggs, cheese, 1/2 bagel, protein-coffee                                   440 calories/37 g protein yogurt w/berries and granola 2 sausage, chicken thigh, meat stick           670 calories 55g ezek cc, hot dog, saurkraut, bread deli me...

 Saturday-I got almost 9 hours of sleep. I am still tired this morning but my body is happy.  Today the plan is to do a long run then relax.  The rain is waning,                                                                                                                                                                                the dogs are waiting,                          ...

 I am exhausted. I have not been sleeping well...I mean I am sleeping through the night and getting about 7-8 hours of consecutive sleep, but I need more. This morning was just an easy 45 minute run which I did in 40' pouring rain. I don't love the warm weather, but this rain is depressing. Today was the last day before a long weekend. I am looking forward to it. Not sure what I will do other than run and workout and relax. I have to figure out the frog dissection. Perhaps doing it with my A block will be like a trial run. We do have an hour and 30.  breakfast 2 eggs, toast with cc                                                              300 calories 17g protein snack bar                                ...

 Woke up at 4:45 am laid in bed until 5am then up to get my coffee and bagel. Ready to run by 5:25 15 minute warm up, I did flossing and mobility around the house then out for about 9 minutes with shadow. To the track for speed workout. 3x5 min at 6:40 pace I hit them all. It was .75 in 5 min. Followed by 6x30 seconds fast I did not pay attention to time but it was like 6 minute pace. 15 minute cool down, shower, protein coffee shake and to work.  Breakfast 1/2 bagel dug out with PB/CC and coffee before run               350 calories 5g protein Protein shake with fair life milke                                                                            175 calories 30g protein  Lunch 3 sausage, veggies, bobo,...

 up at 5:15 Coffee and ezek with CC then took Shadow for a 2 mile walk and did some stretches. Knocked off workout 1 and started my water.  Today is a field trip with the kids. I am feeling a bit anxious but once I am on the bus with all the kids heading to the beach I will be calm.  breakfast 1 ezek with cc, 3 eggs, steak                                                        400 calories 35g protein                Lunch  2 quesadilla (wrap, burger) yogurt, berries, granola             600 calories /50g protein                Dinner 1/2 hamburger with ketchup and mustard cheese                 300 calories  30g protein  After dinner snack ste...

 Saturday- Last night Tucker headed off to his first prom. It almost went down without a hitch. His suit coat was too big (we forgot to try it on when we got home). We still don't know if we bought the wrong coat or if he lost that much weight since Lacrosse season began. My guess is that most of the boys were wearing tuxedos or skinny fit suits and his is a classic fuller suit. He was upset but made it through the frustration. After the kids left we three planned to go to TJMaxx and grocery store. Well the car we just spent $1400 to fix dropped the transmission or something. We are back to one car that runs well. I guess we need to get another one? Not sure what to do the bills are piling up.  I was thinking about how quickly everything moves. Bebe has been gone 13 years! Cannon is going to turn 23 this summer, I am 54! The 7th graders remind me frequently of my age. It is just a number and I plan to be around for a long time if I can do anything about it. There have been hor...

 Wrapping up week 7 Yesterday was a crazy Thursday. Our week at school was out of balance with testing, presentations, and concerts. I did not have to do much planning but it did make me feel like I was running ragged. At least I finally got my contract for next or at least a letter of intent. Got my things done. At lunch I ran out for coffee and I think it was just too much caffeine and my tummy was hurting. I had horrible jitters and anxiousness even after a long walk with the dogs. I kept telling myself to calm down, and that I was safe but it was out of control. The guys had a big lacrosse game and it was such a good game, up 2, tied, one up and then the other. Amazing win for FA. Tucker was exhausted. Tonight is prom and then the rest of the month is good times with May term.  Yesterday got it all done. Felt exhausted and blah when I got home. Tucker headed to The Kitchen after the game to celebrate and I just felt left behind because I had tapped out on food and can't dr...

 Tuesday I am exhausted from a hard workout plus lift followed by a long run followed by yesterday's surprise sprints. My legs need a break. Today is sorta easy...I need to figure out drivers, groups, etc for our field trip. I pray that I have completed all the proper steps. How do I know for sure?  Breakfast        canadian bacon, 2 eggs, ezek with cc/jelly                          300 calories/27g protein              lunch yogurt, granola, berries, chicken salad, pickles                         450 calories/35g protein                snack yogurt cheesecake pudding, english muffin pb/butter              250ncalories /15g protein                    dinner wrap...

 It was a nice weekend once we got past all the rain. Tucker had a rainy lacrosse game Friday followed by another on Saturday. After the game the sun came out and dried up all the flooding from the previous week of non-stop rain. Saturday I watched the game then took Campbell to Lincoln to grab her prom dress and to clean up the mess Cannon left in his attempt to clean the fridge. Returned to FA, had dinner, and I went directly to bed asleep by 8:45. My long run was perfectly slow with the sun rising and a light breeze. I found a worship playlist for the second half and it really had me flying. I have been reminded of my purpose in teaching. It is not about the money but the mission. Being a positive influence for these students and attempting to help them see the world as it is. My big question: how do I teach science classically? My job security for next year is a little better than 50/50. I can't say anything until I have the contract in hand. If I do keep my job, I think we are...

 Friday (8 hours sleep) I woke up feeling nauseous. I took my IM8 and electrolytes, but still had a yucky tummy so I saved my eggs and burger for lunch. Why wouldn't I be hungry in the morning? I ran out the door into the rainy morning ready for another Friday. School went well. I got my steps in the rain at morning walk, recess, and freecess. I got word that my job is (probably) safe which makes me very relieved. All my work was not in vain Food-Breakfast 2 eggs w/burger, toast with cc/jelly         350 calories/35g protein                                                     lunch thai chicken and rice, yogurt with berries, walnuts, cinnamon   500 calories/35g protein                  snack vegan whole food brownie-dates, maple syrup, cocoa  ...

I slept a full 8 hours last night and as usual, I could have slept another 2 hours. I awoke just before my 5am wake-up call. Routine: grab my clothes, to the bathroom, change, coffee, toast with stuff, warm up and go. It was a perfect morning where the sun is rising, heating up the morning. Shadow came with me for 3 slow miles. It was just what I needed this  morning. The miles are piling up even if they are slower than I would like, I am getting it done.    Breakfast-before run piece ezek with pb/jelly/cc and ½ piece with the same 2 eggs+2 whites and a wrap=500 calories and 40g protein Lunch-Tuna, pickles, cucumber, bacon, hots    350 calories and 30 g protein Coffee and butter with 1 piece chocolate       150 calories  Dinner sour cream, avocado, ground pork, a sprinkle of cheese    400 calories and 30g protein  Snack meat stick                90 calories/9 g protein Totals-1500 ca...

 I was exhausted yesterday (like every other day). Fortunately, I got over 8 hours of sleep before waking up to the 5am alarm. Up, coffee with cocoa,  Pre-workout ezek with pb/cc/jelly, and coffee, water               150 calories /7 grams protein                           Breakfast 2 eggs burger                                                                       250 calories 40g protein                                     lunch salad with artichoke, cottage cheese, pickles, hots       350 calories 20g protein    ...

 Today, around noon or evening, I am halfway. How could there still be all that time left? Will I be skeletal by the time this challenge ends? If I don't want to become emaciated, I had better make some changes regarding workouts and eating.  breakfast 2 eggs, burger, 1/3 bagel with CC                                                 500 calories /35g protein               Lunch yogurt w/ berries, sausage, pickles, veggies, cottage cheese    350 calories /41g protein              Dinner burger, wrap, cheese, ezek w/PB and CC/jelly and coffee     500 calories  /35g protein  1400 calories and 111g protein  I can never believe that is the total calories. It seems too low. Perhaps I am miscalculating or the protein is really ...

 Breakfast 3 eggs and a part of a bagel with cream cheese and coffee        300 calories and 22g protein        Lunch Greek yogurt, walnuts, choc granola, berries, an apple                    400 calories /27   g protein            snack chicken wings 6 and red pepper                                                            400 calories and 35g protein          dinner 1 ezek with cc, 1 sausage, cottage cheese and red pepper             350 calories/36g protein  Total about 1500 calories and 120 g protein  Really tired this morning. I did not want to wake up even after almost 8 hours of sleep. School went ok. The kids were...

 I finally went to the bathroom this morning. Keep incorporating fiber and metamucil until I get back to regular BM. I will have to wait to do my run until things settle.  Sleep-about 8 hours. The guys came home from their lacrosse game excited about the win and wanting to share their success. It was a battle, but they came out on top. It got me thinking about watching Tucker play and that we may only have another year of games. It is with mixed emotions that I watch him play. Part of me is waiting for him to explode or afraid he will explode. Had I not been on the sidelines for that game when he was hyperventilating, I might not feel this way. But I did and I do. Today is a progression run with the last 10 minutes at 6:30 pace! That is probably not going to happen. Followed by a gym sesh with heavy shit. Monday begins the running group at Crossfit. I am looking forward to it and to learning about Crossfit. I think the comraderie would be great. The sun is coming out and I sho...

 I did everything late today. I forgot about the picture, so I pulled up my shirt and got a quick photo of my distended belly. The protein has me feeling a little bloated, constipated, and retaining water. I will need to figure out my fiber and get on track with good gut health.  Last night, I slept a good 8.5 hours which I desperately needed. I am happy to be at day 33 and moving toward a completion of week 5.  Breakfast 3 eggs-1yolk and a piece of toast with CC  =250 calories 20g protein  Lunch Tiffany plate 2xchicken sausage (240/24g)veggies (50) cottage cheese (70/10)   assume 400/35 Dinner turkey meat, 1/2 cheese, dug out roll, mayo, hamburger meat, 2 eggs=  600 calories/52g about 1400 calories it always seems too low.  I have been dealing with a ton of anxiety about Tucker. Last night it was reported that Tucker had terrible blisters on his feet that make it difficult to play lacrosse after about an hour. Well let's figure it out. What ...

 Day 32 and I am feeling tired. Milestones this week: 33 (halfway to the 66, which is required for habit formation), 35 is 5 weeks (it feels like I have been doing this for much longer), then there is 37=at noon it will be halfway, I wonder if the second half goes by faster since I am already into the habit of water, workout, read, repeat.  Exhausted from a poor night of sleep. For some reason, I could not fall asleep last night. Could it be my coffee and Keto mug cake with cocoa? Yes! I got into bed at 9:30 but didn't sleep until 10:30ish. I only got 6 hours and 43 minutes. My stomach hurt last night, and I had bad gas. I really need to use the bathroom regularly. I did get back to my IM8 this morning at least.  Breakfast ezek cc/jelly, 2 eggs, coffee (9:30 yogurt 90/15)                         36 5 calories/32g protein              Lunch was odd mandarin, wings, chic...